a-hole

 Autobiography in Five Short Chapters

By Portia Nelson

I

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in
I am lost…I am helpless
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

II

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it
I fall in again
I can’t believe I am in the same place
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there
I still fall in…it’s a habit
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

IV

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V

I walk down another street.

Source: Can be found in “The Courage to Heal” by Ellen Bass and Laura Davis. Original sourcebook by Portia Nelson “There’s a Hole in My Sidewalk”

I first read this poem over ten years ago while I was still in the place of falling down holes and having no idea why I kept ending up in the same one time and time again.  Today, it was lovely to be reminded of it and realise that I am learning to walk down alternative streets which are not in need of repair. 

In many ways the point of this blog is to inspire others who are trying to escape their own personal pits.  There are a mish mash of thoughts here to dip into, many of which come from other people.  My plan (if there is one) is simply to compile here my serendipitous findings and any personal insights and  that I hope will be of help to someone else.

The Jewish word ‘Shalom’ means peace in the sense of inner peace and wholeness.  Through God I have learnt that it is possible to change from being a constantly anxious person to knowing Shalom.

May you find Peace too.

If you have learnt to walk down a different street, feel free to share your story here.

Jo x

shalom

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